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My name is Conrado Salas Cano. I studied physics at the California Institute of Technology, where I graduated with a B.S. in Physics with honors in 1998. Later I enrolled at Portland State University in Oregon where I obtained a M.S. in Physics.
In 2004 I moved back to my home country of Spain, where I have been helping in my family’s real estate management business since.
A LITTLE COMMENTARY ABOUT LITERATURE ON CONSPIRACIES AND SPIRITUALITY
by Conrado Salas Cano
I will briefly mention here some of the literature dealing with conspiracies, what might be happening in the world behind the scenes, and spirituality. For me these topics are all related, as my own spiritual journey was kick-started by the realization of what this world is really about and who might possibly be running it.
I may not entirely agree with the literature I will mention here, and I certainly cannot vouch for its veracity, but I have found it useful in my personal investigations, or at least I have derived excitement or succor from reading it.
Until about 2009, I liked David Icke very much.
If pressed about his work, the intelligentsia and much of academia would probably have been, I imagine, quick to reject it out of hand as a “conspiracy theory”, at least until about 2008. However, I surmise that the term “conspiracy theory”, with its pejorative connotations, was in all likelihood invented by the intelligentsia itself: it has certainly been pushed and bandied about as a tainted buzzword meant to instantly attract ridicule to the “conspiracy theory” in question and prevent an open and cogent examination of its validity. Clearly, the idea behind this psychological verbal ploy by the intelligentsia and/or the Establishment is to prejudice the “respectable” person in society against entertaining the possibility that conspiracies may be more of a norm than an exception in political affairs.
This makes sense because the Establishment has traditionally been allied with power, using the intelligentsia to culturally dictate what kinds of thought are acceptable. Power can be ruthless and shrewd. If a group is conspiring to take over a society or the world, it is logically in the interests of this group to deny, or use the intelligentsia to deny, that a grand conspiracy such as this group’s might exist.
David Icke has argued that there is a unified, global conspiracy. If there is indeed such a global, far-reaching conspiracy, we can wonder: could its proportions actually be bigger than planetary?
My impression is that extraterrestrials (ETs) exist and have been visiting and interacting with humans for millennia: I think one really needs to be woefully uninformed to still harbor any doubt about that. Some of these ETs seem to be incredibly more advanced than us.
Icke’s early book The Robots’ Rebellion, published in 1994, remains my favorite of all, and is very dear to my heart. When I was still in academia (I left university in 2004), I dreaded the textbooks that were foisted on me, but avidly clung on in private to The Robots’ Rebellion. The Robots’ Rebellion was a rallying cry for humans to stop behaving like subservient robots, automatons for the system.
The angry, populist David Icke of The Robots’ Rebellion in the early 1990s struggled to fill small, cold conference halls, and often –as he recounts now- was unable to pay for his venue’s expenses with the few people that trickled in to listen to him.
What about the substance of Icke’s theses? In my view, Icke’s lack of formal “higher education" and standard scientific training has been a priceless asset when it comes to seeing where most have been blind; however, it’s also made him fall prey to a few technical blunders here and there. Some of these could actually be potentially serious, even embarrassingly gargantuan in proportions. I was riveted by his later book The Biggest Secret: however, in it Icke rather nonchalantly declared that the Earth is substantially hollow with entrances at the poles; and, to my knowledge, he has not retracted that assertion since the publication of that book.
In fact, Icke does not bother to openly acknowledge his possible past mistakes. This is even so on the few occasions when he contradicts what he had said in his previous books.
In 2001, I was surprised (and gladdened!) to see Icke appear as an expert in The History Channel in a documentary about secret societies.
Then, after 2004 or so, Icke gave another turn to his research, and from that point on I must confess that I began to be less and less hungry for his new books. I still found him occasionally insightful and unique in explaining the purported baleful global conspiracy in terms of the actual nature of reality, as informed by sages, mystics, shamans and visionaries throughout history, a nature that, until quite recently at least, has been vitriolically denied by mainstream Western science, with quantum physicist and philosopher David Bohm as practically the only renowned exception.
But Icke was beginning to clamorously rehash himself. It was about this time when Icke started coming (a bit) into his own and getting at last some of the recognition I think he deserved. In 2008 Icke spoke at the Oxford Union debating society, at the heart of the University of Oxford. By 2011, he was drawing large crowds in his various speaking engagements throughout the world, and The Telegraph was covering it (albeit in its religion section). These crowds were (belatedly!) opening their eyes and discovering how right Icke had been all along in many vitally important areas.
But Icke’s mistakes were getting cosmically serious by then. In a book published in 2005, Icke predicated that the universe is much smaller than is astronomically understood. Human Race: Get off your knees; the Lion sleeps no more is, I think, the last book by Icke I think I will ever buy. It is peppered with things I don’t like, albeit interspersed with some I like very much.
On the one hand, Icke has vociferously (and sincerely, I think) spoken against the microchipping of humans: this microchipping is said to be part of the agenda of the global conspiracy.
On the other hand, David Icke has, regrettably in my view, publicized a videoed interview with someone who had a dubious past in a child abuse cult, and who now appears to have at least partly fallen for the latest big con making the rounds in the internet. This con is –I am not joking-, the garbage that the Earth is actually flat (!) and that NASA has been covering it all up. My suspicion about this is that some well-funded agents, (perhaps even related to NASA!), have thrown this grotesquely barbaric (but shrewdly couched) con, this revolting ruse, this grand ploy, into the internet as psyops in order to test the gullibility of people in the “fringes” of alternative media, and to be able to more easily discredit anyone in those circles who, lacking the most basic scientific education, may have been taken in by such a ruse…, and, by association, those who have at some point huddled close to them, like David Icke. The social manipulation behind this ploy would then be insidious: videos peddling this flat earth trash are being foisted on me among the search results almost every time I look for something interesting in the biggest internet free video site YouTube. I suspect that the Artificial intelligence-related algorithm in the YouTube search engine has been tweaked in order to dump the Flat Earth trash on anyone who, like me, enters keywords related to a “Global conspiracy” and is hence deemed a target by the social engineers behind this ploy.
When investigating the outré, a hard-nosed attitude is always a boon. I recommend Judy Wood's book Where did the Towers go?, which studies just how the Twin Towers of New York City were destroyed on 9/11. Her study is carried out in what I would regard as a soundly scientific and forensic manner, without going into conjectures about who really may have perpetrated those attacks. I have also been enlightened by Andrew Johnson’s book 9/11: Finding the truth, which to me shows how Judy Wood’s findings have been suppressed, maligned and smeared within the circles of those that are supposed to be interested in unraveling what really happened on that horrible day of September 11 2001: the so-called “9/11 Truth movement”.
I have chastised Andrew for having once posted a very sloppy article that betrayed ignorance of the geometrical (purely mathematical) properties of 3D Newtonian gravity (he openly disputed Newton’s Shell Theorem!). But Andrew has done some magnificent work, and he once recorded an interview with me about “cold fusion” (more appropriately called low energy nuclear reactions) and other energy issues which could be related to the bizarre physical phenomena that occurred on 9/11, or so Judy Wood’s book at least impressed upon me.
Jim Marrs is, I think, another able conspiracy researcher. Jim’s 9/11 book The Terror Conspiracy is packed with some very interesting details, but its publisher is actually named The Disinformation Company, and its logo is the red, horned silhouette of a devil's head. Ostensibly the publisher seeks to expose the disinformation that has penetrated our culture, but my suspicion is that The Disinformation Company, as its name betrays, is knowingly planting disinformation on its own. Certainly, where The Terror Conspiracy’s assessments about what really happened on 9/11 conflict with those in Judy Wood’s Where did the Towers go?, I go with the latter.
In my view, Jim Keith was a very able and streetwise conspiracy researcher: his book Black Helicopters over America: Strikeforce for the New World Order is very dear to me.
My impression about Michael Collins Piper is that he wanted to be, or professed to be, an outstanding investigative loudmouth and a scourge of Zionism. His book Final Judgment: The Missing Link in the JFK Assassination Conspiracy certainly appears to be a monumental exposé, seems to be very well referenced, and might even be an illuminating work of history, although, inasmuch as it may be anti-Semitic in its tone and intent, I have to disavow it.
I much enjoyed the paperbacks Oklahoma City Bombing: The Suppressed Truth and AIDS Inc.: Scandal of the Century, both by Jon Rappoport, who has an artistic, independent, impressionistic journalistic style. Nevertheless, I cannot vouch for all their journalistic veracity.
I’ve read Victor Thorn’s book 9/11 Evil, which is very inflammatory but makes in my view some very good points. Again, I don’t support its possible anti-Semitism.
Michel Chossudovsky is the founder of The Centre for Research on Globalization. He has studied the Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant (ISIL).
He has also studied The Bilderberg group: that cabal of Earth’s very powerful magnates, often shadowy éminence grises, who have been convening yearly to plan major world affairs. Thanks to the dogged activism and the work of investigative reporters, this cabal is at long last being exposed, and even the mainstream media -particularly in Europe-, has had to finally admit to the existence of this preeminent off-the-record council. In this regard, the contribution of independent radio shows has been very important.
I found Texe Marrs’s paperback Dark Majesty percipient and insightful when I first read it: it explained the occult underpinnings of the globalist agenda pursued by the moneyed power-brokers behind the scenes and their network of secret societies around the world.
Texe Marrs is a Christian minister. I think he could be safely described as a fundamentalist. I don’t know for sure if Jesus really existed. He may well have, and even carried out many of those miracles. These might have included the Resurrection,… although I find it more likely that he didn’t die on the Cross but rather later in the tomb transformed himself suddenly into a Being of Light which emitted radiant energy that imprinted the Turin Shroud.
Mind-control is the takeover of the mind of someone else –the victim-. I have been enlightened by two amazing books with the testimonies and confessions of persons who proclaimed being healed victims of mind-control: Cathy O'Brien’s Trance-Formation of America (co-written with Mark Phillips), and Cisco Wheeler’s The Illuminati formula used to create an undetectable total mind controlled slave (co-written with Fritz Springmeier). I lived for some months in Cisco's former house in Oregon City. Cisco likes to spell out her vision of the End-Time, which she, like all alert Christians who study the Bible, thinks we live in. Cisco is also fond of unraveling the false anointment and teachings in the infiltrated, in her view demonically-contaminated churches, which appear to include most major denominations, and fleshes out some of her inside knowledge of the Illuminati. Cisco says she was born into, and later repudiated and escaped from, the Illuminati.
The Illuminati properly speaking ceased to exist a long time ago, but Cisco used the term loosely to designate the powerful (sometimes priestly!) secret society and bloodline network that, according to her, has conducted something akin to Icke’s global conspiracy, but specifically at the behest of Satan, which she and Christian Fundamentalists equate to Lucifer and to a real (demonic) entity.
Cisco seems to regard Jesus as her personal Savior: I don’t know up to what extent this is healthy. Furthermore, I am not sure I ought to devote myself to the God, or god, Yahweh, as she calls for.
I immensely enjoyed the paperback They Cast no shadows by Brian Desborough, the aerospace and “free energy” scientist who provided much of the anecdotal evidence for the astronomical theses in David Icke's The Biggest Secret. "Free energy" refers to the hypothetical obtention of useful practical energy at no economic cost, once the initial investment in the “free energy” apparatus has been made. My suspicion is that “free energy” is very much a reality, at least on a small scale, although a reality still unaccepted by official “science”, which in my experience can sometimes be not a very honest science.
I enjoy Lynn Picknett and Clive Prince's well-researched books. Lynn’s book The secret history of Lucifer appears to whitewash the figure of Lucifer. Lucifer may or may not be real as an entity, and may or may not be Satan, but at any rate I don’t agree with these authors’ slant. These authors are dark!
But authors Richard Leigh, Michael Baigent, and Henry Lincoln must be credited for having brought to the fore arcana buried at the foundation of our culture. These three authors' joint book Holy Blood, Holy Grail is the cornerstone classic that started (in the English-speaking world) the Da Vinci Code phenomenon. I suspect that this pop mass phenomenon has been fomented by Hollywood (and by the Illuminati, if it exists as such) as a means to divert the raising public interest in esoterica, conspiracies and religious secrets, and to chaperone the public into cloisters bedecked with smoke and mirrors, and studded with intriguing cues but not with straight answers.
With regard to the (not so) hidden knowledge of Astro-Archaeology, alignments of monuments with celestial bodies, etc., I can recommend David Ovason’s, well, monumental, book Lost Symbols?: The Secrets of Washington DC, and Giulio Magli’s book Mysteries and Discoveries of Archaeoastronomy: From Giza to Easter Island. The latter, however, while recognizing the difficulty, even with contemporary technology, of moving into place (sometimes with amazing precision) the very heavy stones of Antiquity’s megalithic sites (such as the Pyramids of Egypt), still refuses to entertain hypotheses that remain for the most part academically unpalatable, like ancient aliens or anti-gravity.
Lloyd Pye, a fabulous researcher on human origins, very sadly passed away in late 2013 from cancer. His work should go on until we unravel the full true history of humanity. Please consider buying his book The Starchild skull – Genetic Enigma or Human-Alien Hybrid?. I met Lloyd Pye in 2012: it was a wonderful and very memorable experience.
Joscelyn Godwin is a music/musicology professor who has penned the book Arktos, The Polar Myth in Science, Symbolism, and Nazi Survival, a scholarly study tracing theosophical concepts, Aryan lore, and the history of esoteric notions about the Golden Age. Godwin is a bit too guarded for my taste, but I like his book.
I still enjoy reading John Major Jenkins’s paperback 2012: Mayan cosmogenesis, although by 2010 I had become leery of all the hoopla about the year 2012 and the Mayan calendar.
Richard Hoagland brilliantly combines knowledge of sci-fi, NASA's inner politics, UFOs, the hidden history of the space program, Masonic number rituals, possible relics of life or artifacts of intelligent origin in the solar system, “free energy”, and what he terms more or less correctly "hyperdimensional" physics: physics of phenomena outside the conventionally behaving space and time, and, possibly, across another dimension or other dimensions. But I highly suspect that Richard Hoagland deliberately includes, or is prompted to include, occasional very weak or flimsy, even spurious, evidence alongside his otherwise superb and commendable, simply brilliant, research.
The purpose of this would obviously be to make him a more easily discreditable target. In this manner it would have been easier for the intelligentsia and official science’s gatekeepers to caricature his line of research. His clown-like, buffoonish demeanor has certainly contributed to his fringe personality aura. Hoagland has been accused of being part of a counterintelligence operation and I would not be surprised if this were so.
Exo-archaeology is the study of archaeological remains left beyond the Earth. Xeno-archaeology is the study of archaeological artifacts left (regardless of location) by intelligent extraterrestrial civilizations. A very good book on the xeno-archaeological/exo-archaeological/geological conundrum surrounding the Cydonia region on Mars, with a levelheaded scientific attitude, is The Case for the Face: Scientists Examine the Evidence for Alien Artifacts on Mars.
With regard to the Moon and what really may have happened during the Apollo program, I recommend William L. Brian II’s classic (old) book Moongate: Suppressed Findings of the U.S. Space Program. It is a “hard” scientific book written from a nuclear engineer’s viewpoint. However, I do not buy the book’s suggestion that the Earth is hollow, or all of its hypotheses about the Moon’s real nature. Mary Bennett and David S. Percy’s Dark Moon: Apollo and the Whistle-Blowers is quite interesting, but (at least in its 1999 edition) it is too riddled with New Age fluff.
For the latest on cold fusion –more appropriately called low-energy nuclear reactions-, and the closely related –and incredible- phenomenon of free (sometimes more politically named “new”) energy, there's the great magazine Infinite Energy, and the rigorous New Energy Times of Steven B. Krivit. A vitally needed offshoot of cold fusion and ”free energy” is the ready-to-go, but suppressed, radioactivity-neutralization/nuclear-waste-treatment technology. I recommend Tadahiko Mizuno’s book Nuclear Transmutation: The Reality of Cold Fusion and, for the more technically-minded, Hideo Kozima’s textbook Discovery of the Cold Fusion Phenomenon: Development of Solid State-Nuclear Physics and the Energy Crisis in the 21st Century.
I recommend Jeane Manning and Joel Garbon’s refreshingly informative paperback Breakthrough power. An important note Jeane makes is that “free energy”-producing devices, when at last they become available, will not be, strictly speaking, “free”, in the sense that one will have to buy the hardware with the magnets etc., but then once running the devices will need no fuel, will be clean, and if they require a steady energy input the output will be much greater. Some will need no energy input at all, running on something like the background zero-point energy: this is the fabulously, possibly infinitely deep background sea of energy that underlies and permeates all of our 3-dimensional space per quantum field theory; and is also called, loosely speaking, the quantum vacuum or the zero-point field.
“Free energy” will not be free, and in fact will come at a very painful cost, but if it is embraced with spirituality and wisdom it will bring much needed freedom. The obstacles that stand in the way of the advent of “free energy” are, I think, purely political and economical: my guess is that we could have probably had “free energy” already back in the times of Nikola Tesla, who was (as far as I know) arguably its chief pioneer. However, it doesn’t pay for utility companies to manufacture devices that produce energy too cheap to meter. When this -in my view- atrocious political and economical suppression of “free energy” is overcome, possibly through sheer, genuine grassroots initiatives or internet-mediated social networking; the hope of a few praiseworthy “alternative” researchers and visionaries is that a little energy-generating device will power your home essentially for free, and with no gas emissions, radioactivity, or environmental impact. Personally I don’t see anything physical, or even technological, prohibiting this dream.
I think it can safely be said that the organization called New Energy movement is doing what it can to realize this vision I just described. But perhaps it is better that “free energy” may not come until the low and reprobate behavior in much of humanity’s day-to-day conduct gives way to a greater spiritual wisdom. “Free energy” is certainly not the kind of boon to be misused: witness 9/11, where Judy Wood’s research clearly shows, at least to me!, that a horrible weaponization of some type of free energy effect was utilized.
NOTE: “Free energy” is used throughout here in the context of extracting useful energy from the background zero-point field or similar, which is the general meaning of “free energy” in “alternative” studies. (“Alternative” studies are those studies which have been ostracized, often with scorn, by the mainstream). “Free energy” in this sense of extraction from the zero point field or the like is not to be mistaken with the thermodynamic concepts of “free energy” as employed in conventional academic texts, namely, Gibbs free energy (represented by the letter G) or Helmholtz free energy (represented by the letter F). In the past I wondered if there is actually a connection between these different meanings; now I hardly care. At any rate, my guess is that the so-called “Second Law of thermodynamics” can be violated, even macroscopically. …
I recommend Paul A. LaViolette’s Secrets of Antigravity Propulsion. Paramahamsa Tewari, who has been involved in projects for India's Department of Atomic Energy, is another remarkable pioneer. Aerospace writer Nick Cook's journalistic account, The Hunt for Zero Point is gripping, but it may slightly follow a hugger-mugger directive of damage control and information containment as pertains to the secrets of antigravity and zero-point energy: these two don’t need to be “hunted”. I suspect that these were bagged long ago, and have since been kept well locked up in the vaults of the black projects defense behemoth.
Tom Bearden would arguably be the man to consult on scalar electromagnetics, a subject which was not taught in university when I was in academia, as well as on energy from the vacuum; his findings and depositions are sensational and –in my view- should be required reading in engineering and science schools.
I loved the books of Brian O'Leary, former scientist-astronaut and colleague of Carl Sagan. I especially adored what he called his New Science Trilogy: Exploring Inner and Outer Space, The Second Coming of Science and Miracle in the Void. O'Leary was even trained by NASA to go to Mars. He taught at Ivy League schools, but over time got disenchanted with academia's clinging to the old, materialistic, reductionist paradigm of science, and left university. During the last years of his life, he impassionedly called, from his beautiful retreat in Ecuador, for the restoration of our Earth's ravaged primeval ecosystems, for the long-prophesied definitive coming of the New Consciousness through an expanded science (the “New Science”) that embraced the reality of the paranormal, and for the dawn of a clean, cheap, new energy age, beyond conventional renewables, which may fully and ethically utilize the quantum cornucopia of cold fusion and zero point energy. I am honored to have met Brian O'Leary and spent some wonderful time with him: he affected me so deeply.
O’Leary was never fully disabused, however, of the slowly-bureaucratically-asphyxiating global scheme behind Agenda-21 and the carbon-tax-“Climate Change” mantra. I do not doubt that some anthropogenic emissions constitute greenhouse gases and sometimes noxious pollution too. However, my view is that, as O’Leary explicated, a lot of those emissions can be avoided if free energy systems, such as those pioneered by Nikola Tesla, stop being suppressed. It is said that this suppression has been rather ruthless, not hesitating to employ all sorts of means.
I suspect that there is more going on with our climate than what you will hear in the mainstream media, with the exception perhaps of the occasional History Channel documentary. I think that Covert weather warfare is going on, maybe even being the real culprit of some horrible disasters like hurricanes and tornadoes, and I doubt that this covert weather modification has as its only purpose combating global warming.
Then there are the so-called “chemtrails”: the non-ordinary, strangely long-lasting exhaust trails or spray trails that are often seen coming from airplanes in the skies around the world, and which are still not acknowledged officially as being any different from ordinary jet contrails. Are these “chemtrails“ a form of covert geo-engineering to counter global warming? Or do they seek a more sinister purpose, such as deliberately noxious spraying ecosystems? I ignore what the truth of the matter might be.
I like the journalistic chronicles of Lynne McTaggart about the power of consciousness. She has started what she names the Intention Experiment, intended to gauge the influence of Mind, or of Intention, over matter and the physical world. Similarly pioneering have been Russell Targ's scientific studies into Remote Viewing, as chronicled in his and Harold E. Puthoff’s book Mind-reach: Scientists Look at Psychic Abilities. Remote viewing is the ability of the mind, or of the individual consciousness, to perceive targets that are too remote to be espied through the ordinary physical senses; past events inaccessible to ordinary memory or standard historical research; or even future, or likely future, events. Remote viewing is very much possible, but its practice might be bad and dangerous for the soul.
Michael Talbot's The Holographic Universe is a must-read classic, in my view. Fritjof Capra now seems so timid and so ecologically mainstream in comparison to all the new, “hard” consciousness/paranormal research, but we must remember that he helped pave the way.
I salute Michael Roll's campaign for philosophical freedom, reclaiming for afterlife and mediumistic research the space he says it deserves among the hard, physical sciences (not there in the realm of babble psychology or parapsychology). Michael’s lifelong efforts, at long last!, made it to The Bristol Post, in the form of an uncensored article at that newspaper’s Speaker’s Corner.
The inventors of TV and radio demonstrated over a century ago, and with hard evidence, one of three things: 1) that the individual human consciousness (the soul) survives the death of the body, perhaps traveling to another plane of reality, and can contact those now living on this physical Earth, on this plane of reality, via capable mediums 2), that some deceptive demons have a mind-blowing capability to impersonate deceased individuals, or 3), that the features and past acts of a deceased person can be brought back into life by a suitable medium, perhaps through the agency of some energy field in the Universe which “remembers”, or records, those characteristics. In the most spectacular mediumistic cases through history, a substance (ectoplasm) was exuded that self-organized into the body form of the individual in question. (The Universe includes this physical universe and other universes).
Even a medicine Nobel Laureate, Charles Richet was involved in experiments of this nature where –at least according to Michael Roll, who has studied this matter all his life-, deceased people returned.
A somewhat dated, but in my view meritorious and pioneering, effort to expand/rectify quantum and classical physics ideas in order to grasp and accommodate these phenomena is the book Intelligence behind the Universe!, by Michael Roll’s friend the engineer Ron Pearson.
Concerning the afterlife, maybe it is time to stop believing, and begin trying to know. Consciousness cannot die. Prime in this regard is also the work with mediums of Gary Schwartz at his University of Arizona laboratory for advances in consciousness and health. His book The Afterlife Experiments: Breakthrough Scientific Evidence of Life After Death was informative when it came out.
NOTE: there are various parallel planes of reality corresponding to the different “vibrations”, a vague spiritual concept for which I cannot offer as yet a full-fledged scientific description, but whose intuitive -and often even colloquial- meaning, might be adequate. God is the Source of All Things: they all emanate from God. Yet God is also (in) All Things themselves. The planes of higher vibration can be visualized as vibrating “more quickly”, and being more “heavenly”, and closer to God, interpreted as the Source. I think our consciousness can occasionally reach up to these planes of higher vibration.
As the planes get higher in vibration, they can be construed as less “physical”, in the sense that that they are less “materially dense”. Here I am using the word “physical” in the vague sense of involving bodily contact or “hard”, “tough” activity or interaction (our vocabulary is really inadequate when exploring these other realities). There is the other accepted meaning of the word “physical”, which means “relating to physics” or “natural forces”. It is important to emphasize that, in this last sense, all the planes, regardless of their state of vibration, are equally “physical” because they are all equally real. They are not mental illusions.
In the past I thought (but now I tend to doubt) that it might be possible to alternatively view the different vibrational planes as (sort of 3D) “parallel universes" or realities across an extra dimension. This extra dimension would come in addition to the three spatial dimensions of our ordinary physical universe/reality, and would be different from relativistic time. Even if this alternative interpretation based on the extra dimension is correct, properly speaking the vibrational planes would not themselves constitute different “dimensions”, which is how the New Age fruitcakes and other, more on-the-money, but not mathematically-trained, authors, speakers and (more or less genuine) channelers nebulously refer to them in their spiels.
At any rate: just because a being lies on a higher vibrational plane, it doesn’t mean that he/she/it is necessarily more enlightened or more benevolent. It is also important to realize that even very high planes, far above the reach of the possibly real demons, are still not free, at least not entirely, of the ensnaring shackles of Time. The whole scale of vibrational planes, or at least a fair slice of it, including certainly the plane entraining our fully physical Earth and the slightly higher plane where demons allegedly reside (the so-called lower astral plane), seems to have been caught up in the trap of Time, which might well be a reason why existence can seem such a nightmare. My guess, however, is that there are realms where time does not exist.
You emanate as a Soul from God, the Source of All Things. You are just ultimately an aspect of God. All reality is the projection of, and is in fact, just One Being, God, One Consciousness. However, only when the Soul returns to the Source of All Things, does it become, I suppose, aware that it is One with the Infinite (God) in its indescribable Glory.
The work of Brian Weiss on past-life and in-between-lives regression therapy has also brought me healing. And I like Deepak Chopra, but only to an extent. For example, in his book How to know God, Chopra did not seem to accept the full reality of near-death experiences (abbreviated NDEs) as attested by countless vivid reports, and even went on to contend that they could be duplicated artificially through oxygen deprivation in the brain. He said that a better proof is needed that God exists, something with which I disagree, even though I myself haven’t had an NDE (at least in this present incarnation of mine!). I particularly recommend the excellent NDE research that has been carried out by Pim Van Lommel and by Bruce Greyson.
I have been much enlightened by the teachings of Eckhart Tolle, in particular by his book The Power of Now. Tolle totally rejects the ego in his later book A New Earth: Create a better Life, but I have a problem with that. It is true, I suppose, that spiritual development generally implies a progressive dissolution of the Ego. However, as long as we still keep our names and birth certificates, there will be one and then there will be the other(s), and there will be our individual stories. Sometimes it is legitimate that you may not stand seeing how those around you begin to have something desirable while you don’t. Am I mistaken in thinking that full spiritual healing is not brought about until some offenses that one suffered in the past are redressed? I agree with Tolle, however, that justice and good may not in the end triumph in the way that the vindictive Ego fantasizes. God has a funny, and humbling, sense of humor.
I suppose that Eckhart Tolle, in the end, is right in his asseveration that Time itself is an illusion, and there is only the Eternal Now; however, this glorious, Timeless reality is -I surmise- God’s viewpoint, and can only be glimpsed in extraordinary experiences such as near-death experiences. Once entrained in the flesh and in matter, and caught in the rough and tumble of daily life, it is foolhardy not to acknowledge one’s past, and not to plan one’s immediate future for practical purposes.
Barbara Marciniak's book Bringers of the Dawn has struck a deep chord in me, and gives me hope that very spiritually advanced, formidable benign entities may be underhandedly guiding and assisting humanity from another realm or vibrational plane.
I thoroughly recommend the paperbacks Disclosure: Military and Government Witnesses Reveal the Greatest Secrets in Modern History, and Extraterrestrial Contact: The Evidence and Implications, both by
Steven Greer. Greer seeks to make public –Disclose- all the very secret information that the military-industrial complex has thus far withheld on ET lifeforms, especially of the advanced, intelligent kind, and on their most often mind-blowing, antigravity-enabled, UFO craft…; or at least that's what his initiative called The Disclosure Project for years purported. To many Christians who study the Bible, however, the “ETs” are actually demons, or creatures spawned by demons, as part of a great End Times Deception, and harbor an ill purpose. Greer has also seemed very impassioned in his asseveration of wanting to make available all the workable antigravity- and free-energy-generating devices that have been suppressed, chiefly by the military-industrial complex. But I am not really sure Greer is in a hurry to make those devices available.
Now, to Greer interstellar ETs can only be enlightened, and I think there is a risk in this Pollyannish vision touted by Greer in his speeches and statements.
I am all against official secrecy and I support Disclosure. However, the watchful, Bible-studying Christians might be right in their prognostications that we live at the End of Time, in the sense that Disclosure, and an official admission from governments of the ET presence on Earth, would possibly spell the end of human history as we conventionally regard it. I feel that we must be on our guard against something akin to a possible End Times Deception, and ask God for discernment. Nevertheless, if some of these ETs so dear to Greer are indeed demons or demonic creations, is placing super-weapons in space still the way to engage them? Such planetary defense measures might be justified only if some aliens are a genuine threat to Earth's population, but do we know this is the case when our governments have been lying to us, or at least not telling us the full truth, for decades on this issue? I think that the public has a right to know the score about the ET situation.
Exopolitics is basically the study of the politics of interaction with extraterrestrials. An excellent book, in my view, is Michael Salla’s Exposing U.S. Government Policies On Extraterrestrial Life. Alfred Webre is a futurist, journalist, lawyer, and founding father of this new discipline of Exopolitics, which is still not recognized by mainstream academia. Webre has a good heart. However, I don’t fully trust all his information; perhaps unbeknownst to him, some of it might be disinformation pushed by intelligence agencies. Also, and as evidenced in one his books, titled Exopolitics: Politics, Government and Law in the Universe, he has sought in the past to legislate humanity's excursions into outer space and even into other planes of reality. Personally, I don’t like to be subjected to legislation: I don’t think I need it to behave ethically.
The paperback Abduction: Human Encounters with Aliens, by the deceased Professor of Psychiatry at Harvard Medical School John E. Mack was very important. John Mack studied alien abductions. These are, for those who still don’t know!, the kidnapping of subjects by ETs: abductees seem to be invariably human, at least in appearance! You can similarly check out the work of David M. Jacobs's International Center for Abduction Research. If I understand the militant Christian position correctly, it says pretty much that Lucifer's army of fallen angels are experts at masquerading as ETs in these End Times: from this viewpoint, there are no benign ETs, and in fact no ETs at all; only angels and demons.
With regard to UFOs, homage must be paid to J. Allen Hynek. I also recommend the works of Stanton Friedman, Bruce Maccabee, and James Deardorff and Jacques Vallee. Whitley Strieber’s book Communion has also been important. However, as pertains to these last UFO authors I have just mentioned, you may wish to wonder which of them are/were government/military agents plying their trade, namely, to contain or spin the emerging information released or intimated to the public through (mainly) alternative media channels.
A special mention must be accorded to John B Alexander, the nominally non-lethal, but certainly military-oriented, “Dr. Death”. I met him in Albuquerque in 1999, and asked him flat out when he estimated that ET UFOs would at last be officially admitted to. His answer was rotund: “Never!”, he said. He did not obviously pass up the chance to practice psychological warfare on me. I will not forget his eyes, cold as a razor. I suspect that Dr. Death has plumbed the depths of the mind-control rabbit hole. Cisco Wheeler and Fritz Springmeier have denounced him as a programmer: a programmer, also called a “handler”, is one who mentally controls, i.e., “programs”, a mind-control victim, often as perfunctorily and unfeelingly as if the victim were just a computer. Dr. Death’s wife at one point appeared to be hellishly sexy, perhaps even vampiric.
John Rhodes seems to have researched extensively, from a physical, descriptive viewpoint, the possible presence of reptilian intelligent creatures on, inside and off the Earth, some of which might be reported as “aliens”. If real, these reptilian intelligent creatures may be related to the reptilian, dragon-like entities into which some normally-human-looking individuals, generally in positions of power, are reportedly said to shape-shift at macabre Satanic ceremonies. Yes, shape-shift, like the werewolves and vampires of legend. This shape-shifting phenomenon might invoke possession by demons or spirits from the lower astral vibration. I have read that, according to one alleged witness of human sacrifice, the ingestion of human blood seems to be important for these reptilian entities and/or their human-looking hosts.
While Rhodes acknowledges the possible origin of some of these alleged reptilian entities -called “reptilians” in alternative research-, in another vibrational plane (or dimension), my impression is that he wants to redeem reptilians in general –which he clearly thinks exist- from bad connotations, connotations that, from what I’ve heard, might be deserved in some cases. If these reptilian races indeed exist, there may be a general predisposition to fiendishness or baleful iniquity in their genetic or physical makeup, but then some individuals within these particular races or groups of reptilians may perhaps occasionally rise above such a genetic or bodily tendency, and express goodness or impart wisdom.
Also, I remember attending a lecture by John Rhodes around 1999, and on answering one of the audience’s questions he revealed, or betrayed, an unsettling indifference to, even acquiescence in, the hypnotic mind-control which, it is said, some of the reptilians subject their human victims to.
The book The Murder of Reality by Pierre Sabak (whom I’ve had the pleasure of meeting) is also very interesting in connection with these purported dragon-like reptilians, tracing their footprint on human language in an outstanding work of etymological research.
Bruce Rux has written a comprehensive book, Hollywood Vs. the aliens: The Motion Picture Industry's Participation in UFO Disinformation, which makes very interesting reading to me.
Richard Boylan has reported, or transmitted the report, that Carl Sagan was employed in a secret program to research a monolith that had been found in space -or at least outside the Earth- of clear extraterrestrial and intelligent origin, not unlike what was portrayed in the 1968 movie (and novel) 2001: A Space Odyssey. 2001, whose film version was directed by Stanley Kubrick, is the blueprint for the evolution of humanity, and I am still amazed at its plenitude of multi-layered meanings. There is even Tarot symbolism in some of Kubrick’s movies. Tarot seems to very much work indeed as a way to read the imprint of one’s consciousness, predict future trends in one’s life, and forestall possible dangers, but for a proper application to your particular life situation you need a gifted reader of Tarot (yes, a fortune-teller).
Of course I am mindful of the “skeptics” and their sensational-looking swipes at giving the pretense of debunking. I am familiar with magician James Randi; the now deceased Paul Kurtz and The Committee for Skeptical Inquiry, and I have read Michael Shermer’s book The Borderlands of Science. Here’s my take:
I think that some of these folks suffer from a pathological mental, emotional or spiritual padlock, which blinds them from recognizing the reality of phenomena that defy their limited sense of what’s possible.
But my guess is that others, including probably the movement’s notables, know full well that such phenomena are real and, being smooth professional dissemblers (is “liars” too rude a word?), are actively engaged in their coverup, under the banner of “debunking”.
Only very occasionally do these so-called “skeptics” concede that some marginal phenomena at the fringes of conventional, officially-accepted science are or might be real, in order to convey the public-relations image that they are not entirely closed to new evidence. Generally, these “skeptics” are the last in society to be convinced that a new phenomenon is real, being typically dragged kicking and screaming into the acceptance of its veracity.
Dan Drasin penned an excellent article, titled “Zen ... and the Art of Debunkery- Or, How to Debunk Just About Anything” which studies (with some admitted comic exaggeration) the tactics and sham attitudes of these so-called “skeptics”, which I like to refer to with uppercase “S”, i.e., as “Skeptics”, in order to distinguish them from ordinary, ethical, healthy, open-minded skeptics, which in my view we should all ordinarily be.
“Skeptics” sermonize that they just apply ordinary skepticism to their attitude, and insist that they are open-minded, but my personal impression from meeting some in the past is that they are not. So what is healthy skepticism? To me, healthy skepticism consists of being on one's guard and paying attention if one’s intuition says that something does not feel true in what one is hearing or reading. The mind can't be used for this lie-spotting purpose because it has been programmed. This is where I markedly depart from “Skeptics”, because they despise intuition and ascribe full epistemological value to rationality and what they describe as “training in science”, i.e., Carl Sagan's mythical baloney detection kit as espoused in his book The Demon Haunted World. But, to me, this is all a clever use of language. The “Skeptics” and other shock troops of the establishment have excelled at the pointed (and more obscurely couched) use of buzzwords. “Rationality” and “training in science” in reality mean adherence to the “Skeptics”' implicit dogma of what's possible, sometimes stilted on logical highbrow sophistry, and generally accompanied by a good dose of mental gymnastics in trying to fit one's perceptions of reality to any thought pattern, I don't care which.
Revelation and important insights don’t arrive as the result of arduous striving in thought and of racking your brains. They dawn on you, effortlessly, often when you least expect it. So, really, “Free thought”, while possibly good and enlightening at first, in the end becomes an oxymoron, because “thought” can entrap you and cocoon you in pain, shielding you from the larger reality.
My heart is bruised and broken, because for many years I followed it and only received blows. However, I still think (or better yet, feel), that heart-sourced intuition is one’s best guidance in matters of truth-seeking.
Throughout the body of evolving humans, there are said to be seven main energy points, called chakras, and more or less I personally buy the chakra theory. The living pulse of one’s best intuition comes, I conclude, from the heart chakra, the one located (at least for humans!) at the center of the chest (the actual organ of the heart is a bit to the side of it). Hence this pure intuition may not necessarily correspond to one’s “gut feelings”, which originate from chakras anatomically positioned more toward the inferior part of the body, chakras which are responsive to fear and primal instincts.
So, certainly, my advice is to not accept any asseveration at face value, and this includes what the professional “Skeptics” rattle and what anybody else, including me, may say. Instead, I suggest you listen to your heart and your intuition.
I think that, at bottom, there is only one law of Physics or of Nature, and this is that Consciousness creates its own reality, since reality needs an observing consciousness to exist. But the Consciousness that generates its own reality is none other than God’s…, from which all things emanate. Many forms of consciousness, being intermediate between dead matter and God (and much closer to the former!), have little say –at least consciously!- in what happens to them, especially while they are in incarnate form.
Still, the nature of consciousness in humans and in most everyday living organisms has contributed to the solidification of reality into an ordered pattern which, for much of the experience that we routinely dare to explore, is amenable to the usual laws of Physics and Nature.
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Y ahora algunas notas y enlaces en español -If you don’t speak Spanish, you can skip this segment and move on to the next segment in English, or directly to the (self-contained) English PRACTICAL CONSIDERATIONS ABOUT LIFE section-.:
UN POCO SOBRE MÍ
por Conrado Salas Cano
El 25 de noviembre de 2006 di una Conferencia sobre nuevas energías en el Ateneo de Madrid, en la que hablé sobre la (tal vez mal llamada) “fusión fría” (reacciones nucleares de baja energía) y de la llamada –en Física- energía del punto cero, mencionando sus posibles aplicaciones prácticas. Fue un día muy bonito para mí.
Un tiempo después escribí para el blog de Greg Grisham un artículo resumiendo en español los MAYÚSCULOS y sensacionales hallazgos de Judy Wood sobre el 11-S. Conocer estos hallazgos y toda esta evidencia descubierta por Judy Wood es vital para comprender lo que realmente ocurrió el 11-S. (Nota: en la firma de mi artículo puse una dirección web en la que ya no estoy).
Rafael Palacios puede pecar a veces un poco de sensacionalista, y su periodismo es algo atolondrado y no muy “pulido”, pero es –¡o al menos fue durante algún tiempo!- periodismo de investigación auténtico - si bien no acreditado en medios “oficiales”, por desgracia- . Su libro Extraterrestres: El Secreto Mejor Guardado está francamente bien. Puedes ver el famoso vídeo con la corta pero jugosa entrevista que me hizo Rafael Palacios en el Congreso Europeo de Exopolítica de Sitges en el verano de 2009. (Exopolítica es el estudio, entre otras cosas, de los OVNIs que nos visitan). AVISO: Esta entrevista a lo mejor te resulta chocante. Yo en ella me expresé con plena honestidad. Mis objetivos son pacíficos y amorosos.
Con posterioridad a ese Congreso de 2009, tanto Martín Armada de La radio liberada, como el programa Libera tu mente, me han hecho entrevistas. También Soraya, una persona maravillosa, me ha hecho más recientemente una entrevista en vídeo para su iniciativa Caballeros de Lis (cuyo nombre hace referencia al símbolo esotérico de la Flor de Lis). Supongo que es más que posible que existan lo que se podría denominar como ángeles y demonios. Pienso y siento (no “creo”) que hay Dios, vida después de la muerte, y que el objetivo de esta vida –con su dolor y sufrimiento- es que el alma de uno/a mejore, aunque muchas veces pierdo la confianza en la realidad de estas cosas.
Y otra nota importante: no voto al partido Podemos en España, ¡pues no quiero que me expropien!.
PRACTICAL CONSIDERATIONS ABOUT LIFE
by Conrado Salas Cano
There are some scoundrelly humans in society. It has been my chapfallen impression that these knavish individuals do not deserve that higher knowledge be revealed to them. I have been taken aback on many occasions by the rascally behavior of humans around me, although I am far from being free of sin myself. I must confess that, on those occasions, I haven’t felt very human myself, although I was born in a human body, with its frustrating limitations. I have (often) been sick and tired of this life, wondering who the hell sent me here.
This world seems to be fallen from grace, with its low, unpleasant, chapfallen vibrations. Yet it seems that the whole of Creation may be magically alive and self-organizing. My feeling is that the second law of thermodynamics (which implies relentless overall decay) is in fact false, or at least applies only in regimes where a positive Creative Consciousness is not in charge.
It is nice when the light of Consciousness is shed on existence. Then certain questions arise. Is death really inevitable? I suppose that an intensely conscious presence can see through the illusion of Time, and so then, as Eckhart Tolle has suggested, the burden of time, the weight of a perceived past or anticipated future, stops being “accumulated” in one’s psyche and in one’s cells. This can be combined with some meditative spiritual practices such as yoga, which may activate energy flows, possibly drawing them from higher vibrational planes. With a proper combination of that sort, I wonder: could biological ageing in the cells be much retarded, stopped…, maybe even be reversed?
A few strands of grey hair were spotted on my hair not too long after I turned 40 -that dreadful age-, although they seemed to have mysteriously disappeared a few days later. Nevertheless, I clearly no longer have the motivation, and I most likely have lost the ability, to push myself in running or other athletic endeavors the way I used to. I have tried to meditate and take good care of myself, but the wrinkles on my forehead seem to be here to stay.
The toll and weariness exacted by the harsh pressures of daily life and survival typically in the end tend to dwarf the possible age-defying effects of those difficult-to-attain and generally brief moments of powerful, shining conscious presence, and of associated spiritual practices, or at least this has been the case for life in the Western world until now. Moreover, when others, whom you have as a reference, begin to lack the energy to do certain things, you tend to lose the motivation and the energy to act as you would normally have acted in reaction to those things, and so you wilt and age. We are all intimately connected.
So, without bioengineering, senescence appears to be in the long run more or less inevitable, following maturity, for individuals who have been born human (a few animal species like crocodiles don’t age).
Granted, when it comes to the reasons for bodily death and for ageing, there isn’t just thermodynamics involved but also biology and other factors. Leonard Orr says he has met over eight individuals (chiefly yogis in India) who have maintained their body in health past 300 years of age, adding that not all of them look very, very old. Another Western observer has claimed in the Huffington Post making a pilgrimage to the ashram of a 2,000 year old master, and being struck at how gracefully and easily this master moved and at the vitality the master showed.
A paperback by Bob Frissell, tantalizingly titled Something in this book is True…, discovered for me the alleged existence of Mahavatar Babaji, an ageless yogi and saint who can purportedly manifest any body he wants. Haidakhan Babaji, a teacher who appeared in northern India from 1970 to 1984, and who reportedly performed miracles, is said by some to be that same Mahavatar Babaji.
I think it is safe to say that none of these individuals, if they are indeed so very long-lived or ageless, have resorted to bioengineering or nanotechnology. On the contrary, they seem to have somehow activated a latent power of their consciousness.
In spiritual circles, there is talk of an incipient worldwide process that is –more or less appropriately- called “Ascension”, whereby the vibrations reached by the consciousness of humans and other life-forms on planet Earth are said to be undergoing a steady “rise”. While this rise is said to be driven, or at least assisted, by a benevolent and more-or-less cosmic process, it is clear to me that, for an “Ascension” like that to happen, good souls would have to do their bit. It is further posited in these spiritual circles that “Ascension” will over time entail changes in the body, leading eventually perhaps –in some cases- to the body’s transmutation into an (imperishable) body of light or a more “energetic” state, literally glowing with light. (Formerly?) human bodies might even be able to attain the miraculous fate that in olden times was reserved only for the likes of Jesus Christ or other very select, prophet-like figures: i.e., direct Ascension (in its classical, theological standard meaning) to heaven (a plane of higher vibration) in a glorified and physically shining body, bypassing death. “Just” a transmutation into an imperishable and glowing body of light would, to me, be a most desirable form of bodily immortality.
Is “Ascension”, as bandied about in these New-Age-type spiritual circles, real? If it is, the grim realities of everyday life dash my hope that, in my lifetime, such an “Ascension” will reach the state of glowing light bodies becoming commonplace.
With every passing day, it seems less likely that I will ever achieve an enduring rejuvenation through the power of my consciousness alone and a natural diet. So, if a safe –and affordable!- form of bioengineering is developed that can extend my lifespan with a good quality of life,…, well, then I guess I will be very tempted to try that form of bioengineering, much as I have disliked transhumanism in the past. I have wanted to evolve into something greater than human, but maybe it’s better if I die human after all.
Returning to sociology, I feel that efficient organization may not require government. However, my perception is that humans as a whole are still not spiritually ready for the abolition of governments. There are still too many scoundrels around. Neither are humans probably ready for the blessings of free energy, great paranormal powers or open benevolent ET contact. In my view, these things should happen only as evil disappears from our society.
I hope, probably with justification, that a total global economic crash will not happen. By subscribing to a brighter economic future, we can help create a self-fulfilling prophecy of a positive nature. That's why, for all the talk there has been about gold as an asset in these times, I still haven't bothered yet to trade any of my money for gold. After all, even the act of trading money for gold takes time and energy which detracts from the value and quality of my life. While I don't discourage the purchase of gold as a personal preparedness measure, I prefer the spiritual gold that results from a successful personal or individual alchemy.
My understanding is that the financial system works by lending fake money, totally or partially fabricated out of thin air with no backing on actual wealth, and then by demanding that the loan be paid back in full with real wealth, plus interest. This would appear to be wrong, in principle. In practice…, well, I guess you’ll have to find out for yourself what’s right and what’s wrong as regards the particular local or national economy where you live. It is virtually impossible these days to work without money or banks.
Physical activity is important, at least as long as our bodies are (mostly) confined to this particular plane of reality, at its often depressing and somewhat dense rate of vibration, and the Monday-thru-Friday world keeps being a business-as-usual cesspit with some occasional delightful fragrances. Vigorous physical exercise cleanses the body, energizes one’s outlook, and releases endorphins, which are natural antidepressants. Who knows, good health may still require periodic physical exercise even when free-energy-generating devices, which I have deduced create a general life-charging ambience, become widely available. Or, perhaps, in spiritual terms, we will not rightly deserve these free-energy-generating devices while our lives are Ego-driven and attended by shit of various kinds (feces don’t seem very divine to me, but an organism or being that sustained itself only off air and energy, or whose body glowed literally with light, wouldn’t –I imagine- need to excrete them).
I suppose that, from a final, metaphysical standpoint, we are all God because All is One; however, I find that the Way of Humbleness is the better Spiritual Path. I prefer to think that I am inconceivably insignificant without God. In fact, without God I am truly nothing, I realize. Yet, by surrendering to God, I suppose one aligns oneself with the omnipotent Divine Will behind the Universe, and That is real power.
ME AND EXERCISE
by Conrado Salas Cano
I have been a runner.
My personal best in the (stand-alone) standard marathon is an official 2:59:33 at the 2010 international Zaragoza marathon, over a certified course with no elevation differential between start and finish. In this race, I inadvertently shaved off a few yards (twenty yards at the most) because a couple of gentle curves along the course were not very well signaled, although it is practically certain that I made up for those yards along the rest of the course, for example in the pit stop I was forced to take.
Around that time, I produced one or two agonistic training sessions that indicated an even greater running potential, although this was never translated to an actual race result. In one memorable training session in late 2011, I may have averaged under 4 minutes/km for 20 miles. If I didn’t, then I must have come really close to averaging under 4 minutes/km (or 6:26.24256/mile, I have a weak spot for decimals).
On June 9 2013, I accomplished with some elation, and under bothersome rain, my best official 10 km time, a 38:31, in a pretty flat road race over a legal course (in principle suitable to be validated) with no elevation differential between start and finish.
After that, however, some nagging, persistent right hip pain compelled me to see a doctor, and I was diagnosed with a cam-type femoroacetabular impingement on my right limb. It seemed that the high-impact pounding occasioned by my past years of quite obsessive, dedicated running (with my tall, somewhat heavy body build) had taken its toll on my right hip joint’s cartilage. Also, I just wasn’t born with the ideal hip joint for running. I began to think about trying my hand at a triathlon.
On June 17 2014 I had a femoroplasty, and the surgery and subsequent rehab went very well. In fact, for months after rehab I seriously contemplated attempting a triathlon, and logged 12 hour training weeks that combined stationary biking, swimming and increasing amounts of running.
However, for me to attempt a triathlon at some point I had to start riding an actual bike outdoors (I am too clumsy for most off-road triathlons), and road bikes are very dangerous and unsafe here in the part of Spain where I live due to the traffic. My mother made me realize I should abandon altogether the idea of attempting a triathlon.
By now I’ve realized that my years of pushing myself hard to be competitive, even just as a stand-alone runner, are over. I clearly don’t have the genetics to excel as a runner, ever. And I no longer have the motivation to try. Besides, I am too old now, or so would conventional sports physiology dictate. Now I just do stationary-biking, perhaps some swimming, some occasional running (I am such a sorry shadow of my former self!), and maybe, if I am in the mood, a little bit of yoga or of Tibetan exercises.
In short, by now I am tired of competition, in life or in sport.
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